Friday, December 22, 2006

Totally NSBR just need to "out" myself...

I have fallen off the Weight Watcher wagon and I landed with a really hard thud.

I have spent the last 5.5 yrs on and off of Weight Watchers. Mostly the reason for my being "off plan" was due to pregnancy. It seemed that every 20 lbs or so I would get pregnant and have to take a break.

Well, now that my babymaking days are over I have NO reason, scratch that, I have NO EXCUSE for what I have done. It took me quite awhile after my last baby to get back on track. It came very easy to me the time before last, where I was breastfeeding and lost 37 lbs within 6 months and then I got pregnant lol. Even though I was breastfeeding my 5th baby as well, the weight didn't drop off as easily as it had before and I found myself struggling to stay on plan. However, last year (October 18th) I was able to smack myself in the forehead and make myself do this and I was successful. I lost 27 lbs and I was a size 8! I hadn't been a size 8 since before I was pregnant with my FIRST baby! I got down to 15 lbs left to get to my final goal and I lost my way.

Now here I am, a year and 2 months later and I have gained all of my weight, if not more back. I don't know exactly how much I weigh right now and I am afraid to know, however my scale is broken (and no I didn't break it, one of my kids did). So I have to go by my clothes until I can get another scale.

Tonight is already shot but tomorrow is the going to be the first day of the rest of my life. I am so sick and tired of how I have been feeling, wearing baggy clothes, and rarely leaving the house.

I am tired of using food as an escape and a source of comfort.

I want to be a good mom to my kids. I want to feel good about myself and I want to be happy.

I don't need to be told it's ok because it is not ok.

I need to be kicked, I need tough love, & I need support.

My current stats:

Height: 4'11"
Highest Weight (in 2000): 175-180 lbs
Start Weight (10/18/05): 152 lbs
Current Weight: 150-ish
Goal Weight: 110 lbs
Current goal: get back into my size 8 jeans.

So ok, now that I've beared my soul.... lemme have it.


  1. Give yourself a break, mama! I am bad about ups and downs too...You can do it, though! I was considering joinging the biggest loser scrap challenge if it starts back up in January...couldn't the last one because I was pregnant, LOL...maybe you should join with me! You'll be fine! Merry Christmas!

  2. Hi there, was just browsing around and saw your post here. iVillagecom has a wonderful online community for WW Followers

    Hope you're doing well approaching the first month anniversery of this post :)